I am a lousy blogger. These days, I am so lousy I basically only blog in my mind. Sometimes, I would open the Blog Now page, stare at it, and will the laptop to type out my thoughts. Crazy.

Life is hectic as hell for a dental student in her clinical years. Hectic and stressful. Won't blog much, until I gain the power of Professor X.

Until then, I shall bid you adieu. For people who want to suscribe to this blog, I say no need lah. You'll get nothing here wan. Only gibberish, that is, when I feel like writing. This post is a very good example. You have read thus far and what do you get? Nothing right? Exactly. Don't waste your time reading these lousily assembled groups of words, masquerading as a valid post. There are not even eye-candy photos since I do not believe in narcissism as an alternative for intelligent wordy posts (yes, I may be lazy, but I am not fluffy)

Go read the FHM or Playboy and you'd get more knowledge out of it.

I must admit. Conversations regarding her prior to this involved only gossips and critiques on how she led her life. How she was trying to break into the showbiz arena. And such conversations only always ended with a superior feeling that "she's-a-joke". She, was my junior in secondary school; more an acquaintance than a friend. This, is the tragic fall which took her life yesterday.

She was so young - merely 22 years old. I'm 22 (because the birthday has not arrived =P) and still sometimes, I feel pissed that people are not listening to me just because I'm young-thus-clueless. I want to see more, do more, learn more just so I can conquer the world and be king. I bet she had wanted the same thing. Unfortunately, she had passed up her chances.

If her death teaches me one thing, it is that I should not do things which will cause pain to my loved ones. I believe that when you love someone, you do not make them worry and cry for you. No parents should ever witness their children on the cold hard surface of the autopsy table. No parents, none.

News of her death came to me, like a soothing balm, at a time when I was so disgruntled at my own life. After the shock subsided, my temper was brought down by the reminder of how fragile life is. University being a total jackass is but a speck of dust in my eyes. A couple of blinks and I will be able to see and march forward again. Nothing should stop me. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Hiyaaakkk!

Rest in peace, YT. It's funny how this is the only monologue I have with you. It's even funnier how I ridiculed your life but is so affected by your death.